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A Gift of Life

At the most unexpected time, God has a given us a gift, a very special one indeed.

I am PREGNANT!

Yesterday morning, I decided to pee on a home pregnancy test strip. I have a very regular period but for some reason, I was 6 days delayed and my boobs hurt sooo bad! Very unusual indeed.

A pregnancy test is the only way to confirm my suspicion. In 5 seconds, 2 lines appeared! Oh my God! It’s positive! I became teary-eyed, so very happy and so shocked at the same time. Just when I thought that I’ll turn 37 and unpregnant still, came this pleasant surprise.

AimstripSo I went on to see my fertility specialist and showed him my pregnancy test strip. Well, he said I am pregnant. But an ultrasound must be done to confirm it. And it’s confirmed! God is so good!

1st UltrasoundTruth be told, I am not on assisted reproductive technology since August last year. That was the last time I saw my fertility specialist. No Clomid, no Pregnyl, no IUI. In fact, DP and I were having personal issues that our minds are not even set on TTC. So what could I have done that made me pregnant this time? I really don’t know.

I just know that God moves in mysterious ways. He gives us what we’ve always wanted, not in our time, but in His time, and at a time we least expect it.

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TTC Update

It’s CD2 for me today and I started using my BBT thermometer this morning. The direction said to place the thermometer under tongue. I got 97.6 F. I took it twice and with the same result. For those of you who are using digital thermometer, do you use it under your tongue too? Same time every morning? I hope I used it right.

BBT Charting is a result of my “5 Things in 30 Days” where I had a serious talk with DP yesterday. Not all issues were tackled though. But in the TTC arena, at least I know he still wants to have a baby. We have an agreement to push through with IUI, maybe next year, after the holidays. Christmas season is such a stressful month in the office, so I think it’s a good choice. No Clomid and Pregnyl for me yet. I’d rather take these meds after we visit our doctor next year. I don’t want to self-medicate (too costly!). As I am writing this, my left hand is busy opening the Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor.

Yup, this cycle, it’s TTC the natural way.

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Out of the Game

I’m out of the game…again. Since my family is home for a vacation, I get to spend most of the time in the province (where they stay). So many things to do with so little time. Every minute counts and I’m overly stressed. No baby dancing for me and dear partner (DP) either (he’s not on leave). My fertile days had passed and when I finally saw DP last night, we had an argument. Worst, he called on his whole family to the rescue-he called his mother and his older brother; his younger sister called me on my cellphone while his older sister went to our house to fetch DP. This is the bad side of having a close-knit family. Even if it’s DP’s fault, they would definitely take sides, not mine of course. My feeling is like DP is the woman and I’m the man of the house. Hello?! I’m the woman here, for God’s sake. But I face our problem without calling my family. I don’t know where he spent the night. But one thing I’m sure of, he’s drunk right now. That’s how he faces his problem, by drowning himself in alcohol. Surprisingly, his sperm count is not affected at all. The 2 times he had sperm analysis, everything was normal. Though there were defective sperms, the motility and count was good and I was injected with the best sperm in the last IUIs. This I was assured by my doctor.  This morning, his mother called a few times but I wasn’t in the mood to talk to her. Good thing we have caller ID. I knew it was her calling. Ahh…wish me luck.

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I Gotta Have Faith

No, this post is not about George Michael’s Faith song.

It’s what my ob gyne told me this afternoon. She’s not my infertility doctor by the way. As part of telling her my medical history, I told her that I’ve been on fertility work up; had 2 IUIs before but trying to get pregnant naturally for the next 2 cycles. She asked me if I had tests done and what were the results. I told her everything were normal: I had HSG and my tubes were patent; my partner has no sperm count issues; and we have no STDs or history of.

I told her I’m really wondering why I can’t conceive. She said my case is unexplained infertility and since it’s unexplainable, she told me “you gotta have faith.” Yes doc, that’s what I thought so too. Then she proceeded to ask me if I had been to Monasterio de Santa Clara (St. Clare Church) or if I had danced in Obando, Bulacan. These are religious places in the Philippines which are known and believed to give miracles to the faithful. In St. Clare Church, people come to offer eggs and ask the saintly nuns to pray for their petition while in Obando, fertility dance is done by childless couples in the streets to honor Santa Clara on her fiesta. I chuckled at the thought of dancing in Obando (but at the back of my mind, maybe in the future, I will have to go there also. Who knows?!).

So what have I done so far in the name of faith? I’ve been trying to pray the rosary daily (trying because there are days that I couldn’t do so). I’ve attended novenas to St. Jude at his shrine. I pray everyday before going to bed. My sister, who’s based in Montreal, Quebec, goes to St. Joseph’s Oratory twice a month and I’ve asked her to always light a candle for me and my partner.

When my first IUI failed, I really cried. I was devastated. When we went to our infertility doctor, during the consultation, I cried again. He said I should not worry because we’ve been doing our best and trying everything medical science has to offer. But then again, “Man proposes, God disposes.”

I gotta have faith. Yes, I have faith and I believe God will give me a baby or two, in His time. Hopefully, His time will be very, very soon.

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I’m Not Pregnant…Who Am I Kidding?

Just myself. Days before my menstrual period, I know that the IUI failed. All I got were AF symptoms. Nothing more, nothing less.

Do you know how difficult it is to think otherwise? I know that deep inside, I’m not pregnant but the other part of me wanted to think that I’m still in the running because AF has not yet come in.

Until yesterday. The last ounce of hope was gone.

It’s time to take a break. No more TTC for me…at least not for this cycle. And the next cycle…maybe. Ahh…I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know what to think anymore.

Tears are beginning to fall again…This is crazy. I’m just kidding myself.

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14 Days post IUI…Just AF Symptoms

It’s my 14th day post IUI. All I have is AF symptom like having a pimple here…an acne there…My boobs are not even sore or tender! I’m been temping for the past 2 days but the temperature showed it’s normal. Cervical mucus is white and creamy. I don’t know if it’s a pregnancy symptoms. Sorry for thinking like this. Hahaha!!!

No, I’m not thinking of testing. No more HPT for me. The first time I did it, I was devastated when I got a BFN! But I’m praying so hard for AF not to show anymore.

For all others who are trying to conceive, I sure hope we get pregnant this cycle. God willing!

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On a two-week wait (2WW)

I’m on a two-week wait.

The wait is killing me…

But not so much during the first time…

You see, my partner and I have been trying to conceive for a while now.

My first IUI was on June 20. Obviously, it wasn’t successful. I was really excited during that 2WW. I was thinking whether I should test or not. Then I bought a home pregnancy test and tested the following morning. It was big fat negative! It was devastating. I cried all day. I didn’t go to work. I never imagined that was how I would react. I made a pact with myself never to test again.

Of course, my partner and I never gave up. So on to another IUI procedure.

When AF showed, on CD4, I went to my doctor. Second IUI was last July 18, a day after I turned 36.

Now, I’m 7 days post IUI.

Really hoping this time, I’ll get pregnant.

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